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Friday, September 23rd, 2011
“Until we have seen someone’s darkness, we don’t really know who they are. Until we have forgiven someone’s darkness, we don’t really know what love is.” — Marianne Williamson
For years, I have blogged in the name of authenticity and transparency, knowing I had a deep dark secret I was not sharing.
I kept it to myself because I was afraid it would hurt my business.
I look back to posts in late 2009 and throughout 2010 when I was really going through it, questioning everything, uncertain about who and what to believe, and I am surprised to see how positive and upbeat my posts were.
Wednesday, September 21st, 2011
Day 3 and I feel better than I have in a LONG time.
It’s funny, yesterday after I found out that Amex canceled my merchant account and I did everything I could to help them see how stupid that was, only to realize they were not going to change their mind no matter what I said or did, I felt a deeper sense of peace and relaxation than I have in a long, long time.
Oddly, I even felt a bit euphoric.
That’s what facing reality will do for ya!
Monday, September 19th, 2011
Well, it’s day two and I’m still here, still not smoking pot and facing my challenges head on, fully present. And there have been plenty of challenges today.
Challenge #1: How did I Get So Out of Shape, Physically?
I used to have a Crossfit trainer come to my house and work me out 3 times a week. As I became unwilling to work as much as I was and my financial situation changed, I stopped paying for the trainer. That meant I stopped working out too.